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Thursday, February 23, 2006

sadness

I just feel like breaking down and crying my eyes out. I am trying to stay busy around the house, thinking it will be the cure, but it is not. Here is what is behind all my emotion: My mom has lupus. She doesn't do the best job at taking care of herself. I have been really bothered by her condition for a long time. I want better healthcare for her than what I think she is receiving, but all of it is so beyond my control. The disease is so complicated that I can hardly understand it, and she is pretty private so not many even know what she is going through. Well tomorrow I am going with her to the hospital so they can run some extensive tests. She has pneumonia for the 3rd time in 5 months. She also has pleurisy for the second time. Her body is not responding to the medication and instead of getting better, the disease spread to her other lung. After all the test have been run that want to admit her and give her antibiotics through IV's. Every time I talk to her, I sound almost too casual. I don't want her to know that I am worried. I have a hard time being completely vunerable with her at times. Anyways, the point is, I am REALLY concerned. I want my mom to be better. She has so many stinkin health problems, it's kinda depressing. So if you read this, and you think about me or her, please pray for healing. I know we serve a GREAT BIG God and I have no doubt about Him being in control. I just need to rest in His peace and hope my mom is doing the same.

7 Comments:

Blogger Rachel said...

Hey girl- I will pray for you both right now and tomorrow. I will pray for healing and peace.
I love you.

8:14 PM

 
Blogger Kate said...

cry to jesus.
i will be praying.

10:00 AM

 
Anonymous Amanda said...

I said a quick prayer for both you and your mother this morning. He is all pwowerful, Praise God.

11:16 AM

 
Blogger five in six said...

We will be praying for your mom, you, and your family. God is good, even when we don't have any idea what He's doing!!

2:15 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are so precious to me! I am so sorry about what is going on with your mom. You know that I can relate with the sadness of having a mom who makes poor health choices. And you can see how God has worked in my mom's life and restored her. I would encourage you to pray that God would change her heart and give her a desire to want to find better habits. I hope she feels better soon! My friend Liz tells me that the only reason God reveals sin in other people is because He desires for us to practice intercessory prayer on their behalf. I love you and I will be praying for you! Sorry I missed your call this weekend. We had the women's retreat, just got back.

2:44 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

That was from me, RW!

2:45 PM

 
Blogger Teeny said...

I am so sorry to hear this TS .. I will keep your Mom in my thoughts that she heals fast and feels better in no time !!! big hugs to you my friend xxxx

4:44 PM

 

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