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Somedays I feel like I just suck at being a teacher, mom, wife, etc. Other days I think I could rank somewhere on the top ten of the best out there. I would really love to go an entire 2 weeks feeling even kill about my performance. You know .... just give me a week. I don't regret the decision of keeping at children at home. I am just a person who looks at the glass half full. I know I am not alone, sometimes that thought should comfort me, but it doesn't. I want to be the best. My weaknesses are so HUGE that I easily feel swallowed up by them. I keep thinking in a month, I'll feel okay about it all. It is a complete lie b/c I have been saying that for years.

The sun is hitting my desk. The house it quiet. I can feel God's presence. I am wonderfully made. The good, the okay, and even the yucky parts of me. I was fashioned to bring Him glory. I am only a vessel, which He is to fill. I am to be about His agenda, not my "justified" will of my own. I am drawn to Him in the stillness. He is my God.